Filipinas That Want to Have Half White Babies

March 11, 2022 Post a Comment

Years ago, I received a telephone call from one of those irritating survey companies.

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It must accept involved something beyond the banal, seeing as I submitted myself to an hourlong interrogation past a man with a congested, Urkel-esque voice. Eventually we got to the indicate where he asked, "Are you white, Black, Asian, Hispanic, or Native American?"
I responded, "I'm Asian and whi--"

Assertive and resolute nasality punched through: "You lot can only choose one."

"Fine. Other."

"That'south not one of the choices. Choose the i you identify with more."

"Uh, I don't play that game. Let'due south skip this role."

The survey continued for at least another xv minutes, and so the affair of racial identification slithered dorsum into queue: "Then, are you lot..."

Irritated by what I perceived to be a taunt, but was more than probable motivated by the surveyor'south not wanting to have wasted time on an incomplete interview, I went into a mild philosophical bluster almost how choosing only one was akin to honoring one parent while denying the other; that I felt fully fastened to both races.

I excused myself from the survey and hung upwards the telephone.

Moments later, the telephone rang. It was the same fellow insisting I give a conforming respond to this question. I snapped, "Become f*** yourself!" And with that I slammed the telephone on its cradle, hoping it would band like Big Ben through the man's obstinate caput.

The prevailing arrangement of racial classification is an odd one that I never cared much for, 1 that casts disparate nations and cultures into monolithic amalgams, delineated by our facial features or peel color.

Humans like order and simplicity, and they like information technology without fuss: it's a system neat in its firmness, but a taxonomic disaster whose application is inconsistent and arbitrary. Especially for people who don't fit neatly into any of the prescribed boxes.

Nether this system, I am both Asian and white: what some might call hapa, to use a pop Hawaiian-derived term, or Eurasian, some other endonym commonly resorted to.

Simply even this is bereft, nebulous, and to a degree, even misleading. Generalized labels like "biracial" or "Asian" or "white" conjure stereotyped images that don't necessarily reverberate i's identity, experiences, or outlook. At that place is very fiddling I share culturally or historically with someone who is, say, of Korean and English extraction -- still they, too, are both Asian and white.

While yet very generalized, it would exist much more accurate for me to call myself Malayo-Slavonic: My dad was a Filipino immigrant of Pangasinense-Tagalog ancestry, my mom a third-generation American of total Rusyn background whose family identified as Russian (more on that afterward).

For as long as I've had an awareness of being and my relation to the globe at large, which was quite early, I've believed it necessary to empathize and connect with one'south history and origins. Emphasizing ane group while minimizing the other seemed dismissive, disrespectful, and inauthentic. The relationships are unlike: some things are more accessible and quotidian, while others occupy a less tangible realm. Information technology'due south a mix-and-lucifer situation, but both are as important.

I call up many times beingness asked, "Which do you place with more?" or existence allowed only to "check ane box," the incident detailed in a higher place being merely ane example out of dozens.

Having a Castilian surname, passing every bit Latino -- itself a complex category, with its own nuances and twists -- would have been a elementary proffer questioned past few. Simply that isn't who I am. And to do any of these -- choosing just one, or even something that I wasn't -- would shoehorn me into notwithstanding some other prefabricated "box" equally information technology were.

In an age where diversity is ostensibly historic, it'southward of import that one set of preconceived notions non exist replaced by another. In this country, everyone comes from somewhere, and nosotros are shaped by both our immediate and more afar histories.

Growing upward in the eastward San Gabriel Valley during the 1980s and 1990s, my schoolmates were mostly of Far Eastern, Latino, Southward Asian, and Western European extraction, with a smattering of students of Middle Eastern background who were either Muslim or, like me, Orthodox Christian.

My father emigrated from the Philippines, and owing to my 2d-generation status as a Filipino-American, also as the large Filipino presence in Southern California, I was well-exposed to that culture and considered information technology role of my working, everyday identity.

My dad's upbringing in a staunchly Protestant (Seventh-Mean solar day Adventist) family contributed to an outlook somewhat different from a culture that is heavily influenced by Roman Catholicism and Spanish colonialism. He was very American, having attended a schoolhouse administered by American missionaries with instruction in English.

Tagalog was reserved for intimate and informal interactions with family and friends, and much of what he related of the more mainstream aspects of Philippine culture -- his recollections of hanging out in front of the town cathedral during Simbang Gabi and eating puto bumbong from a street hawker, for example -- were from his many adventures and misadventures away from the family home.

My connection to my maternal roots have been a process of rediscovery, every bit my mother maintained a nominal-but-concrete awareness of her ancestry despite beingness thoroughly Americanized over two to three generations.

WHITE CHRISTIAN PRIVILEGE

One thing I tin say is that during the last years of the Common cold War, telling schoolmates of my "Russian" ancestry and Orthodox religion -- its distinctly "Eastern" expression quite different from Catholicism or Protestantism -- was met with suspicion and confusion.

It continues in the geopolitical climate of today, with a relative ignorance of the history that's shaped the cultural dynamics of Central and Eastern Europe. I would argue that information technology was on account of this role of my identity that I experienced the near prejudice growing up.

Yes, the people from this part of the world are racially "white," but culturally, we are distinctly Eastern. Nosotros are, thus, perceived as "foreign" and "the other." Choosing to ignore this would constitute an act of historical denial: a deprival of tragedies suffered by my maternal ancestors at the hands of neighboring powers -- tragedies seldom discussed, or inaccurately represented in Western historical accounts.

When I was in college during the late 1990s, I took a course in multicultural psychology and became acquainted with the notions of white privilege and white guilt. They were concepts that clearly cast "white" people as a monolithic European race collectively responsible for more than a millennium of oppression and enslavement, conquest and genocide, often in the proper name of Christianity.

I wouldn't accept outcome if the definition of "white" were more specific: Catholic and Protestant Western Europeans, namely the British, the French, the Dutch, the Spanish -- the "colonial" powers.

But where did my Orthodox Eastern European maternal ancestors fit in? What function did they play? They were "white" and suffered profoundly at the hands of those on both their western and eastern flanks, from Crusader and Caliph alike. I saw no reason to bear responsibility for things my ancestors knew cypher of. Why was our history being marginalized?

I posed these questions to the professor, adding that for earlier waves of immigrants to the U.South., the experience was generally much harsher than for nigh who make it on immigrant visas today: at that place was no protective legislation, and those who showed signs of illness were sometimes shipped dorsum.

His answer was something to the issue of, "Well, that's why we have these measures in identify at present, and besides, your people assimilated into American order and could alloy in, and for that you lot should be grateful."

With considerable resentment, I thought, "Excuse me? And then why all this breast-beating about other experiences and histories?"

He offered no answer to the more remote historical realities of the Old World, as if he hadn't heard what I'd asked, didn't think information technology deserving of exam, or just thought I'd flown in from an alternate reality and timeline -- which might merely every bit well take been the case.

My Eastern European ancestors were expected to blend in whether they liked it or non, and my contention was that if a unified American civilization cannot be had, so multiculturalism must be pursued for all, non just for a select few.

'I AM FROM NOWHERE'

Andy Warhol liked to tell people he came "from nowhere" when asked about his origins -- a proclamation at in one case ambiguous merely supremely incisive in its truth. Like my mother, he was a Carpatho-Rusyn -- a Slavic people whose homeland straddles the Carpathians from southeastern Poland to northern Romania; a function of the world that is popularly associated with Dracula.

There is much contention as to whether or not Rusyns plant a distinct ethnicity apart from our neighbors -- the Poles, the Slovaks, the Ukrainians, and, every bit the similarity of name suggests, the Russians.

There is a complicated history here that stretches back to the stop of the get-go millennium and a people chosen Rus' -- which itself deserves its own article -- but I'll condense it to the most salient points that have influenced my identity, and how I see the world.

Organized religion is the vessel past which civilisation has historically been disseminated, through whose appropriation languages, ethnicities, and nations coalesce. Like our young man Rus' -- Russians, Ukrainians, and Belarusians -- the Byzantine Greeks brought Christianity to our people in the form of Eastern Orthodoxy. Past the belatedly Medieval era, the Rusyn homeland establish itself nether Roman Catholic rule and Orthodox Rusyns were persecuted, much as their brothers-in-faith the Greeks, the Armenians, Arab Christians, Serbs, and Bulgarians have also been at times.

Some relented and converted to Roman Catholicism, and in so doing also took on a Smoothen or Hungarian identity. Others adopted a sort of hybrid faith that maintained Orthodox rites while submitting to the dominance of the Catholic hierarchy. Amidst these, some connected to telephone call themselves Rusyns, some (like my ancestors) chosen themselves Russians, and some assumed the name of the region the Russians gave to the westernmost fringe of their empire: Ukrainian.

In one notorious case of persecution, thousands of Rusyns and other minorities perished in the Thalerhof concentration camp at the hands of the Austro-hungarian empire during World War I.

It was against this night and difficult backdrop that my maternal family began to trickle into the Us through Ellis Isle, starting around the turn of the 20th Century.

For those of my grandparents' generation, in that location was for a time bang-up pride in beingness both American and Russian. Under the banner of what and then was a nation that promised boundless opportunity and freedom, they fought alongside their brethren from the Old Country confronting those who saw them as livestock fit just for hard labor.

However, the Orthodox Russian federation they once looked to for protection was no more, held captive by a new and godless Bolshevik empire, the Soviet Union. Even the successor states to those that once oppressed united states of america -- Poland and Hungary -- were imprisoned behind the Atomic number 26 Curtain.

At present, more than than e'er, being a good American citizen meant shedding old customs and identities. Simply even as memories of where they came from and what they endured were subsumed by baseball and apple tree pie, elements of consciousness remained.

For my mother'due south family unit and for me, the symbol of Russia wasn't that ghastly hammer and sickle; it wasn't even the venerable quondam double-headed eagle inherited from the Byzantines. It was the three-bar cantankerous of Orthodoxy.

The Soviet legacy inflicted a gaping wound on the Russian soul that, viewed through this wider lens, was in some ways a logical outgrowth of the assaults that came before. And half a globe away, Russian Americans felt the blowback.

When my female parent was growing up in the 1950s and 1960s, my grandfather used to tell her: "Don't tell anyone y'all're Russian. You lot can exist 10,000 miles away and if something goes wrong, they'll blame you."

My mom'due south siblings complied, merely she, existence the defiant sort, fabricated a point of revealing her indigenous identity when opportunity availed itself.

This, during the height of the McCarthy era, led to her indelible a number of unfortunate confrontations. I've heard her talk of a blowup with a loftier schoolhouse teacher who addressed her as a "God**mn communist," which led nowhere skilful, relieve for the principal'due south function, where she insisted she be moved to the front so that the teacher would have to look her in the eye for the rest of the term.

By the fourth dimension I came along, memories similar these were vestigial. But since my dad was a first-generation immigrant, I was exposed to his native culture in a firsthand style, and that fabricated me curious about my mother'southward story by the time I was in grade school. And since I was at the fourth dimension enrolled in an Adventist schoolhouse, my interest in religion was also stimulated.

My maternal grandmother refused to share much, maxim, "We're American at present." But she eventually relented and offered what she could retrieve.

When I was in the 4th grade in 1989, I transferred to a public school. In fulfillment of an consignment I gave a presentation on Russian Orthodox iconography, dutifully obtaining an array of slides from a San Diego museum.

And this is when I began to larn, the hard way, something nearly my mother's experience and just why my grandfather said what he said to her. Commencement came the insinuations about the benighted Russian mind from my teacher, who shared anecdotes about an "ignorant-just-not-stupid" Russian acquaintance of hers. (This was also a instructor who routinely referred to the Soviet Union as "the Russians.")

Then came the aping of vague Key and Eastern European accents past schoolmates who'd seen "Rocky IV" a few too many times -- a pity they'd likely never watched movies like "Taras Bulba" or "Doctor Zhivago".

And of course then ensued the usual schoolyard brawls warranting my own visits to the master's office, complete with pep talks advocating contentment with an "American" identity and the pitfalls of indigenous luggage. I've wondered, would she have told me the same thing if I were of another minority background?

I began to run across patterns that were anticipated, not only in media depictions, but also in the way history was taught in school. In strange policy rhetoric and decision-making, even later on the Soviet bloc had been consigned to history'due south dustbin, "Russia" was conflated with the USSR in the Western mind. Russia was, is, and likely always volition be "evil."

Today'south allegations of troll farms and ballot meddling reinforce the "bad Russians" trope. Recent history and electric current news needn't be rehashed here, but the adjacent fourth dimension you turn on the news, pay attending and remember about how you'd run across things if you had my -- or my mother's -- optics.

Like my grandfather once brash my mom, I could've kept my half-Russian background secret or ambiguous; "blended in" as the higher professor said my fair-skinned immigrant ancestors and their contemporaries were able to practice. Just is that what we actually want, to erase who we are?

'I Idea HE KNEW KUNG FU'

At that place'due south a twist to my story. My mom is a white adult female, built-in in America, simply the product of a culture that is in many ways exotic and foreign. My dad was a dark-brown man from a faraway place, but in many means he was very American.

As I've mentioned, my father grew up in the Philippines and was raised as a Seventh-Solar day Adventist, although he wasn't religious. But his begetter -- my grandfather -- had a questioning and investigative spirit that saw him venture away from the Roman Catholic mainstream of Philippine culture, coursing through a variety of Protestant sects introduced to the Philippines by American missionaries before settling on Adventism.

My dad'due south Protestant upbringing contributed immensely to his American outlook. He was a happy-go-lucky guy who was far less interested in, let lonely encumbered by, the history of his native Philippines and interactions with successive waves of Hindus, Chinese, Arabs, Spanish, Dutch, English, and Americans with the indigenous Malays.

Of course, he would tell me stories that every Filipino schoolboy knew: most Magellan, Lapu Lapu, and Rajah Sulayman; of the heroes of Philippine nationalism, Rizal and Aguinaldo. Merely when I'd start talking about the ancient Hindu and Muslim principalities of Srivijaya and Majapahit that encompassed maritime southeast Asia, he would merely throw his hands up and whorl his eyes: "Mark, you're too into roots!"

There were a few stories involving racism that he encountered, but he had a way of lightening the situation, something that I'm not very expert at: "Mark, yous take things as well personally!" He would only exhale in exasperation, ringlet his optics, and shake his caput.

He had some opinions regarding the overreach of police enforcement, peculiarly officers from municipal and canton divisions. Ane memorable incident circa 1970, which he related several times, involved a routine traffic stop where he was restrained by chokehold despite complying with the officer. At the court advent, he mentioned the excessive restraint, and the officeholder in question attempted to justify himself by saying, "I thought he knew kung fu."

The gauge wasn't impressed, and the citation confronting my dad was dismissed.

Having arrived from the Philippines only a few years earlier, my dad was acutely aware of the racist nature of such a comment.

But he felt the incident was an example of a policeman letting his position "get to his caput" rather than existence racially motivated or the product of an institutionally endemic mentality. In his own words: "A lot of cops are a**holes, especially the younger ones. They go a badge and a gun, and they think they can practise whatever they want."

And as I see it, this sort of tendency isn't unique to law enforcement, merely can be found anywhere people have the power to exert a measure of authority.

My dad was very much informed by the American pop-culture of his time, and enjoyed watching Westerns, war movies, and in some ways I think tried to embody a rebellious spirit in the manner of characters portrayed by John Wayne, Clint Eastwood, and Charles Bronson, with a measure out of smoothen à la James Bond.

He had a manlike quality that was too chivalrous and family unit-oriented: think "man-of-the-business firm" but gear up to defer to the wants and needs of his wife and son. He insisted on putting himself last (as was my mom in relation to me) and bordered on the indulgent.

He was something of a raconteur, and stories of his rebellious escapades growing up, his fights and brawls with classmates and teachers and fifty-fifty more "colorful" confrontations on the streets of Glendale and Boyle Heights -- right up until he met my mother in 1971-- were enough. Stories nigh never studying in school, yet managing to ace his exams, introduced me to a habit that, for better or worse, I might accept tried to emulate in my own studies.

He was fiercely contained; at once businesslike and applied. It was a spirit that endured throughout his life -- even afterward he contracted COVID-19 earlier this twelvemonth.

A DAD Existence A DAD

I share this story with yous, because my father's memory deserves a glimpse into just who he was and his own views -- not quite the same as, but past no means dissimilar to mine -- about this public wellness crunch during its nascent stages.

I'm non talking from a place of intellectual or philosophical speculation, I'm non talking because of social or economic concerns. And even though I do have something beyond a layperson's technical understanding, I'm not even talking from a medical or scientific standpoint. I'm talking equally someone who actually lived through it and lost a member of my household to it.

You see information technology with your own eyes, you feel it yourself. Y'all feel the frustration when fellow healthcare professionals dismiss y'all as yous're arguing with them to carelessness protocol and apply anything they can -- even if we don't know it will work -- to save someone y'all honey.

Belatedly terminal year, when news of the novel coronavirus began to trickle in from Wuhan, there was considerable anxiety amid my professional colleagues -- I am a dentist by trade -- well-nigh what this meant for us from an occupational standpoint.

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Details about transmissibility were vague, and subject to countless revision, reversion, and contradiction. At the time, it was yet thought to be an disquiet confined to the interior of China -- unsafe, to be sure, just quite literally half a world abroad.

Dentists are bombarded with respiratory droplets on a daily basis, and standard PPE -- masks, gloves, center coverings, and either a lab coat or disposable gown -- take been de rigueur since I entered the profession more than 13 years ago. I operate a minor practice in Diamond Bar and also piece of work for a larger corporate dental chain at a number of their locations.

I also live in a multigenerational household: my mother is 73 and visibly frail, with a number of existing wellness weather condition. My begetter, who would have been 76 this by July, also had a number of preexisting chronic issues, but these were well-managed and he had a potent, robust constitution. By no means was he "at death'due south door."

Living with your parents doesn't hateful that you're a debt-laden loser living in your mom's basement. I paid off a middle-six-figure educatee loan the better part of a decade ago and live comfortably, but being the merely child, my parents wanted me to relieve; leaving the nest to offset my own family once "the one" came along. Perhaps that was my biggest privilege, not one of race or skin color, but one where parents saw their children every bit building on what came before, not sending them into the world as they relished an "empty nest." When the mean solar day comes, I hope to take the opportunity to replicate their approach.

By belatedly Feb, every bit the pandemic spread, I saw the writing on the wall, and had begun to consider suspending all clinical activity. I knew nosotros had a problem on our hands, just didn't expect information technology to balloon then quickly, let alone find information technology at my own doorstep.

Within a few days, I modified my daily routine. I used to visit local flea markets early in the morning time before work to observe the odd ancient treasure, and besides for exercise -- that was now out of the question. I'd even begun wearing a mask before we were told to -- or told not to -- I can't remember which came first. Organized dentistry was wearisome to prefer an official pronouncement, despite the loftier-take a chance nature of our work.

In both my private practice and my task at the group dispensary, I began to treat simply acute and urgent needs, trying to minimize exposure. By the middle of March, the California Dental Association and the dental lath issued a number of vague recommendations that stopped brusk of giving any firm guidance or directive. It was at this point I closed my practice, and reported to work at the group exercise only for emergency cases.

Betwixt March 14 and 23, the 24-hour interval I stopped working altogether, I saw perhaps 5 patients for cursory consultations. Other dentists I work with weren't so cautious with their approach. I cannot rule out the possibility that I contracted the disease at work, but proving information technology is well-near incommunicable.

When I told my dad most my concerns, he chuckled, threw his head back, sighed, and laughed, "Oh, Mark, you habiliment a mask, you wear gloves, y'all habiliment goggles, you have a lab coat. I don't know why you keep worrying when you have protection. Y'all'll say anything to justify having a break. Do what you want!"

I would even undress before going inside the house -- peradventure a flake of an overshare, only it's true. I insisted my dad do the same, and fifty-fifty though he thought information technology absurd, he complied: "See, Mark? I'm following orders. The dominate has spoken."

When it was time to practice the grocery shopping, he insisted that he be the one to venture out, despite my protests: "If one of us gets sick, all of u.s. volition get sick. I know the protocol better than..."

As he often did, he interjected before I could terminate objecting, reminding me of his time as a infirmary ambassador: "Mark! You lot recollect you know how to exercise this better than I exercise. I worked in the hospital for 45 years -- I dealt with JCAHO (Joint Commission on Accreditation of Healthcare Organizations, a infirmary accreditation and credentialing body) and OSHA. I know what I'grand doing."

He'd go along: "People in their 30s and 40s are getting ill -- even people in their 20s are dying! I go during the senior 60 minutes and no one's there. If you go, it'll be crowded. I don't want you getting sick. You have your whole life ahead of you lot. And if your mother gets sick, she'll be a goner. I'chiliad going to become. You. Stay. Habitation!"

He was a dad being a dad, and I couldn't dissuade him. Frustrated and a bit bellyaching, I waved him off and left the room, mumbling.

What was happening in my dwelling was doubtless unfolding in millions of others at the time, while high higher up united states of america, the national argue over how to handle the growing pandemic played out as a mutually contrarian, all-or-null, zippo-sum tug-of-war. Equally I see it, our country's worst ailment -- selfishness -- coincided with the gravest and almost acute public health crisis to strike our planet in more than a century.

We Americans have a warped thought of essentiality. One side justifies civilizational upheaval whilst beating a drum of perpetual grievance and identity politics, cloaking information technology in politically correct and inclusive euphemism. The other side makes weak economic and libertarian appeals, citing Constitutional amendments as if they were handed to Moses atop Mount Sinai, and as if the founding of our imperfect Matrimony were mandated by the Omnipotent Himself. Both, in their selfish abandon and obsession virtually "being right," instead of "doing the right thing," poured kerosene on the fires of contagion.

Meanwhile, people die.

'DON'T DWELL ON THINGS YOU CAN'T CONTROL'

During our final weeks together, my dad and I were riveted to the various tallies beingness kept of COVID-nineteen cases worldwide. He liked Worldometer but I preferred the Johns Hopkins tracker, despite its frequent glitches. He liked to play with numbers and statistics, and he'd compare his own prognostications with those existence offered past public health officials.

Despite his computational vigil and intellectual astuteness, nosotros got into an argument about his conspicuously linear extrapolation -- which is, of course, not how unchecked replication and transmission happen. That, and his low estimate of the number of deaths that would occur by this point in fourth dimension, not knowing that in mere days he would be part of those statistics.

At that place were many moments of humour during those last weeks, some maybe not suited to polite company. And moments that, in retrospect, prepared me for what was to come. Similar the time he said, "Mark, don't dwell on things you can't command. Everyone's fourth dimension comes -- it's part of the life cycle. When the Commander calls, I'll be ready. You focus on what you need to do to go where you need to be. I'll be fine."

One moment is engraved in my memory equally our goodbye, perhaps ii days before he fell sick. I prepared his favorite breakfast plate -- lox, sliced onion and tomato, and a toasted bagel -- and brought information technology to his bedside equally he crunched the current COVID numbers on his calculator. I'd as well been tending to some much-needed tidying and system effectually the house.

With a huge grin on his confront, he declared, "My son is taking good care of his parents! I love you, Mark."

I rolled my optics, said "Yeah, yeah, yes," waved him off, and turned to leave the room. I glanced back at him and saw him shake his head, however grinning before he began to swallow: "You lot're a good son, Mark. I beloved you."

I airtight the door and went nearly my spring cleaning. He said these things ofttimes, and my reactions were like as here, simply at that place was an urgency in its repetitiveness this time that makes information technology especially poignant, in retrospect.

I concluding saw my dad live when I brought him to the triage tent in front of the hospital around midnight on Apr 5. He was certainly frustrated, but not fearful, and he acknowledged that his demise was likely.

We spoke briefly on the telephone during the adjacent couple of days before he was intubated. I could hear he was struggling, so I kept the conversations brief then as not to exhaust him. His only concern was for my safety and health, every bit well as that of my mother: "Mark, be careful and take good care of your mother. Y'all might exist the only 1 left."

I tested positive while my dad was in the hospital. But my symptoms were very different from his. At the time my dad was admitted, the focus was on a triad of symptoms -- fever, coughing, and difficulty breathing. Those symptoms appeared suddenly and progressed rapidly. I'm still unsure if what I experienced were indeed symptoms: no cough, only rather episodes of rapid heart rate, hypertension, and what could all-time be described as Parkinson's-like tremors that were brief and intermittent.

My dad died on April 10. I recovered.

There is a tremendous amount of sad irony knowing that my dad came from a country where exotic maladies are commonplace, found a measure of success in the "state of opportunity" as it were, and succumbed to an exotic disease that found its way hither from the other side of the world.

Tragedies are weighed by those who write the history books. Many are overlooked or disregarded. Those who manage to exist heard seldom use their voice to bring attending to those forgotten atrocities, every bit if suffering and oppression were exclusive to them.

No, it isn't sectional. Nigh a quarter of a million people take died in this state, and well over a million have died worldwide in the space of ten short months.

POSTLOGUE

I call up a lot well-nigh my dad these days. I think near the life he led long agone that shaped him, and how he and my mom shaped me.

My dad was born during the last months of World War II and grew up in the backwash of the destruction information technology wrought. I accept many childhood memories of his stories, tales of Japanese soldiers holding out in hiding subsequently the state of war and rice sacks full of worthless, Japanese-issued 100-peso notes stashed in his family dwelling house, repurposed every bit play coin.

MacArthur and Eisenhower were heroes of his, and he was a firm believer in American exceptionalism. He arrived from the Philippines around this fourth dimension of the year in 1967, when our nation was in the midst of an earlier iteration of social change that I wish I could say was purer in its intentions than what I feel nosotros are now experiencing, simply the truth is that its seeds had already sprouted.

In 1971, he met my mother and married her at the end of the post-obit year. A strange and unlikely combination that, as is to be expected in any mixed union, saw a number of cultural squabbles. But as my mother has said, "He was a responsible family man and that's why I married him. He was funny, too."

They were practical people whose honey grew out of compatible values and a shared mission to heighten a family. Nevertheless, information technology wasn't uncommon for him to propose spontaneous twenty-four hour period trips to San Francisco or Las Vegas to dine at favorite restaurants, leaving before dawn and returning late in the nighttime. He had something of an indulgent, bon vivant streak, yet in me, he encouraged a bourgeois, circumspect approach.

My view is more than nuanced and less romantic than my dad's. Our land isn't the nation of MacArthur and Eisenhower -- and hasn't been that mode since shortly after their time. Peradventure it's because I take a longer view. My sensibility arises from seeing how history, some of information technology quite distant, affects the dynamics of our ain time.

As he would frequently say when we'd discuss world events, "Mark, you keep harping about things that happened 500 years agone! Get over it!"

My dad's frame of reference was fully within the confines of the 20th century, and he saw these turbulent episodes as regrettable only cyclic, confident that America would always prevail: "Mark, these things come and become. Y'all should've seen how crazy the hippies were when I came here!" And so he would go off ranting about the antics of the Symbionese Liberation Army, the Conditions Underground, and so on, and and so forth.

I'chiliad not and so certain America will prevail. Unless we can put aside our competing agendas and work together to solve the unprecedented confluence of crises nosotros now face (and others nosotros will most certainly face downwards the road) there may come a time that is unbearably night, no affair what side of the ideological fence i sits on.

But my dad's optimism, and a faith in a meliorate future that drove my mother's family to these shores -- where their shared values found an heir in someone like me -- attest to a belief that their adopted state would indeed prevail.

I hope they were right.

ABOUT THE Writer:

Marker Moya is a native Angeleno who grew up in the e San Gabriel Valley and its environs, living for a number of years in New Bailiwick of jersey and New York while pursuing his undergraduate and graduate studies at Rutgers and NYU. He has been practicing dentistry since 2007 and operates a small full general practice in Diamond Bar.

An amateur violinist with a particular interest in Baroque and other early music, he is the founder of the @voxsaeculorum composer's association and served as composer-in-residence for the Long Embankment-based Kontrapunktus Baroque Ensemble from 2016-18.

He is an agile fellow member of Holy Virgin Mary Russian Orthodox Cathedral in Silver Lake.

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